|February 21, 2006||Vol. 3, No. 27|
Passionist Fr. Rick Frechette is a physician who has worked in Haiti for 18 years. He has set up a large orphanage called Ste. Helene, and a pediatric hospital, St. Damien Children's Hospital, both missions of the international organization called Friends of the Orphans.
Jonah under the withered tree
By Rick Frechette
PORT AU PRINCE, Haiti -- Yesterday, I sat on a hot rock on a hot road in the hot sun in a hot slum for nearly an hour trying to get my senses back. I dont remember ever being so sad and tired, so sick of it all, so overcome with feelings of hopelessness and futility. That the rock was in the middle of the infamous Cite Soleil is not exactly a sideline to the story. Even the United Nations is afraid to go there, as are the 2 million inhabitants of Port au Prince. I was there to answer a simple question. Can you or cant you trust in the basic goodness of human beings? I had always believed you could, but now I was in doubt. And it wasnt just a red truck, but even my vocation, that hung in the balance.
It all started Sunday, when we were bitten by the ancient serpent of evil. It was a nasty bite. Our whole little troop was kidnapped from the cemetery at Drouillard, as they set out to bury a small child who died in our hospital. Yes, the whole troop, even the small dead body -- gone in a minute with a band of thugs.
Then the troop was broken up. The grieving mother was pulled violently from the red truck that serves as our hearse. She was robbed and harassed and threatened and then told to run for her life, bullets ringing out after her. Frantically she ran, like a rabid dog, terrorized, not even knowing where to go and having no idea if and where her precious child would be laid to rest. Emmanuel was hauled back up to the cemetery where he was robbed of the few dollars he had. He was threatened with death, reproached for having so little money in his pocket, and sent running for his life as had been the mother.
Eric and the dead child were taken in the red truck, deep into the slums at Drouillard. It seems that someone from the gang suddenly saw by a human light, and said to their leader, Boss, he was going to bury this child. Why dont let him go and just keep the truck. Eric found himself dismissed with a grunt, and, after being robbed, went walking the few kilometers back to the cemetery in the hot sun, coffin on his head, heavy with its precious load. This road was deserted, and he had every reason to fear attack from any quarter. But, as we all know, the worse attacks for anyone always come from within.
Somewhere along that abandoned roadway, as he trod his way so carefully, the serpent bit again. Eric himself being an orphan (from our own orphans home) and an ex-con (yes, we sometimes fail), suddenly found himself thinking that I would never believe that he was kidnapped, and the red truck stolen. Surely, I would see that story as a cover-up for stealing the truck himself. Tormented by these thoughts, which grew in strength in the course of the long, hot day, his mind became more twisted and distorted. So much so, that when I finally met him for the first time after his ordeal, he launched a full-scale verbal rage at me, accusing me of caring nothing for his situation and doing nothing to help.
I was baffled and had no idea what he was thinking. In fact, I had gotten the call that he was kidnapped as I was starting Sunday Mass at our orphanage in the mountains. By cell phone, I had organized an army of people to help him. And I was assured by the gang leaders that he would be released. But none of this would matter to him, any more than a poem would matter to a raging bull. Now it was my turn to be doubly stung.
I am not a stranger to Cite Soleil. We have many involvements there: water delivery, two schools, clinics, emergency medical help, ice cream runs for the children, and so on. I had no hesitation heading there to get to the bottom of this incident with the gangs. As soon as I arrived, I chose that hot rock in the middle of the street as the throne of my protest. Two gang leaders came to talk to me. Why was I on the rock? If I wanted the truck back why didnt I just say so? Please go home, we will send the truck to you before the end of the day. OK, so you refuse to go without the truck. At least move to the shade until we get it. We will buy you a Coke.
It wasnt just the truck. I was protesting what was done to a dead child, to a grieving mother, to Eric and Emmanuel, to my whole team, to the whole country. It wasnt just a truck.
When I wouldnt budge, the leader, Bazo, finally said to me, Mon Pere, have you gone crazy?
Am I crazy? Are you sure your question is for me? Your friends kidnap the dead, and I am the crazy one? Why are you crushing the people? Why? This poor women, already weighed down by poverty and sorrow, had this small chance to bury her child with tenderness. And you smashed her chance. If we didnít bury this child ourselves, the body would wind up in the burial ground for the destitute dead, TiTanyin, where the mass graves are so shallowly dug the dead become food for dogs and pigs. On top of her poverty and sadness you heap on terror, and send her running in fear and despair. And you have the gall to ask me if I am crazy?
The red truck was rolled up to me, curbside. Complete: battery and jack, radio and papers, complete. Here now. Please get out of the sun. They didnt know it was one of your trucks. Why dont you mark all your trucks a certain way so everyone will know them? Really. Do you need to mark even a hearse? Are even the dead not spared this nightmare?
When I finally got home, I stopped in the chapel for a quiet minute. There in the corner was Eric, sobbing. I sat next to him and he flooded with tears. He had heard that I went myself to Cite Soleil for the truck. So he knew I believed him. He let out his doubt, that I would ever believe him. Deep sobs. Eric, you are keeping yourself in prison now. This kind of thinking will never help you. Its no good for you. I love you and I believe in you. Thats whats good for you. And you are good for me. For Gods sake, be free of this twisted thinking. I took off the simple, carved cow horn cross I have worn around by neck for many years and placed it around his neck. No great get as far as jewelry goes, but I needed to give him a deep sign, something to stay with him. Then he asked me if I knew what was, for him, the worse part of the whole ordeal. He explained to me that the worse part was standing helplessly as a poor, grieving mother ran off in confusion and anguish. How he wishes he could find her and help her, and tell her that he saw the funeral all the way to the end and had buried her little child tenderly. As I watched his face and listened to his words, my energy returned to me with a surge.
Yes, human beings are basically very, very good.
Off to bed. This is more than enough for one day. But not without reading the words of a favorite hymn:
We will run, and not grow weary, for our God will be our
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